I'll still use
TUMBLR though, but I figured that some
personal BORING information shouldn't be shared there. So I've decided to revive my blog again! :)
It's been a long time since I last blogged and countless things had happened til I don't know where to start...
Okay... how about...
Dear Blogger,Many things had happened recently and its getting on my nerves. Well, mainly because my final year project-FYP is due on 1 February which is a week from now. And my progress?UNKNOWN!I can only have faith that I'll hopefully finish my project on time. I'll definitely give it my all now.It's now or never!
Friends.
Of all times, it has to happen now. I'm bad at this... really bad at this kind of problem.
I've so many unfinished business to deal with.
She fell to the bottom of her life.
This wasn't meant for two.
She struggles to find herself in time,
But she can barely move.
She turns the pages everyday
Just to change the mood
But every chapter reads the same
It's so hard to make it through
This song. These lyrics. It felt like those words came from my heart. It was a living hell to me. It was emotionally disturbing to me. So much I couldn't stop my tears at a point of time. The most I could do was to pour out my feeling to those who were there for me.
But my heart remained closed and my lips remained sealed.
"Who could have understand?"
I asked myself that countless times. Its not that I don't trust my friends. But I was afraid. Cause I put myself in their shoes. And thought... I wouldn't understand and there's nothing I can do.
Why should I make them feel helpless? And what's the chance that they wouldn't change their impression of me? What's the chance of them not feeling disgusted or wanting to stay away from me?
I'll never know what are they really thinking. And I can't take this risk cause I know I cannot handle this blow. With all that had happened, I cannot take this blow.
I realized that the least I can do for myself is to be true to myself.
So to all the current problems I'm facing now...It's nothing compared to the ones I had experienced alone.P.S. To those who care,I've fallen to the bottom of my life before.And this isn't even close to the bottom.So don't worry,I'll be up and running in no time.I just need time.- I know my priorities
